Whenever I start getting emails from people asking me if I’m dead since I haven’t updated my blog in a week or more, I feel forced to log on and post some cleverly written reasoning for why I’ve been away, apologize, and then promise to do better. That is always easier when there is some exotic, international travel involved. I haven’t done that in a while, but would like to, so if you have any ideas let me know.
This time, though, I’m not going to make excuses and promise to do better. I don’t really know what is wrong with me, but my desire to engage in technology is waning. My issue is that I can’t decide whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing.
If my priorities are changing and I’m investing time elsewhere (that’s for Eddison Fowler), then I would think it is a good thing. If it is because I’m being snowed under by a bunch of junk going on in life and my response is to retreat and break off ties with the outside world, then it is a bad thing.
Honestly, I’m having a rough go at it right now. Not sure why or what, but it happens to me fairly frequently, typically every year or so. The good news is, I feel myself adapting and coming out of what ever cave it was that I crawled into.
In the last few months, God has been teaching me some new lessons about life, myself, family, and ministry. I don’t know where these lessons are headed yet, but I know it’s sort of shuffled things around in my life. Things that seemed important are now revealed for their emptiness, my strengths appear to be my greatest weaknesses, and for the first time in years I seem to have more questions than answers.
I almost feel like the right thing to do would be to get away and try to sort things out, sort of like one of those really cool journeys that people go on in movies. The problem with that is that the coolest ones involve lots of walking and camping, and it’s freaking cold right now!
Frequently, I’ll sit down to blog and nothing will come. The same thing is happening for preparing classes, sermons, and leaders meetings. It’s almost like the pieces have moved around a bit and I’m still trying to find out where they’ve gone.
All that being said, if you’re willing to be patient with me through sparse blogging as I continue to figure some things out, I’ll happily share whatever this journey is that God has me on right now. Perhaps together, we can discover some really cool stuff.